I Know Not the Why

As I grow older, I become more aware of my iniquity. It’s a natural process of maturation and part of the spiritual experience. “Who will save me from this body of death?” For within my self-strength, I stand self-condemned.

I know not the why of your great love.

How greatly I know

I deserve none of your very deep love.

How little I know the great knowledge

You revealed with answers adorned

To a seeking son adopted, not born.

How greatly I remember your guidance through

The tangled thickets.

How soon clouds flee, sunshine of your faithfulness warms me —

And I forget it.

Oh, how little I deserve, this wretched one,

As the nails for the holes in your hands I spun.

Forgive me, O Lord, a sinner 

Seeking a savior, for I have sinned from my mother’s womb.

Directed to the Man from Galilee, finding an empty tomb.

Venturing inside I found no-body, a note on an empty bed of stone –

‘son, follow me,

I will set you free.

Your tomb will be empty of you as Mine was for thee.’

My Savior lives, and I’m set free for He shed His blood also for me.

For I know Whom I have believed,

I know His voice

is one with His sheep, and I set free.



Dear Reader: The longer I’m on planet Earth, the more I recognize my sinfulness compared to God’s holiness. I understand this is a normal process among His children, and part of the experience of knowing God. However, from a personal perspective, it gives me an intense and increasing thankfulness for our Savior and Lord, Christ Jesus! The closer I get to the Door, the more aware of the flames behind me and the brighter the Door ahead. (Zechariah 3:2)


“Do you believe this?”

“Yes, Lord. I believe you are the Christ, the Son of God who was to come into the world.” [John 11:25-27]

17 thoughts on “I Know Not the Why”

  1. Some of us have been trained for a lifetime to see our own sinfulness to learn how to be ashamed before God.
    I believe that God wants us to really take a closer look at grace.
    So much of the doctrines that we came up in are filled by law and little understanding of grace.
    Yes, identify your sin, but then toss it into the ocean of grace, and rejoice.
    Romans 5:20-21

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  2. I know you don’t post often, so when I see something from you, I’m always anxious to read it. And your posts always provoke a thoughtful contemplation. This was certainly no exception. Beautifully poignant, G. W! Thank you so much!

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    1. Thank you, Beth. I’m humbled that you would find the words of my poem worth reflecting upon. I go over it seeking ways I could have said it better, clearer.
      In Zechariah 3:2, I see myself, and all God’s redeemed, as at the Judgement seat. Thank you, again!

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      1. Because the Word has so woven itself into your very being, It in turn is woven into your poem. With each line, a verse would tickle my thoughts and I enjoyed sitting and letting my mind recall the scripture.

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  3. We live in a wretched, sinful world. It’s all around us. It’s part of our lifestyle. Sometimes I think it’s in the air we breathe. I find myself wanting to be somewhere else than where I am… but we can’t really escape it. Not until He takes us home.

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